not really anyhting to say, just checking in...

Currently Listening Welcome to the Cruel World By Ben Harper see related

Wow, it has been about two and a half months since I have shared with you my immense thoughts…  My, how time flies… So much has happened since the day I last posted.  Not all of these events I would like to share…

For some odd reason, I feel like I should partake in the Xanga world today once more.  I feel relieved today.  I am not quite sure why.  I have been dealing with far too much stress in the last short portion of my life.  I feel as though I am somehow happier today than in the past far-too-many days…  I feel smart, strong, intelligent, witty, funny, and creative, all in one day.  I feel as though I am different today than I have been.  Perhaps it isn’t the “happy factor.”  Maybe it is just the idea that, well, it’s the flippin’ weekend…  Ah, yes, the weekend…  Mom’s birthday on Sunday, looking forward to spending some time with the parents.  Not quite sure what to get her.  Maybe I will cook a dinner for them on Sunday.  Yea, that sounds like a good idea.  Bring out a nice bottle or Merlot.  Tell stories about the weekend’s events. 

I watched a movie for the second time in two weeks.  Crash…  It has been years since I saw a film that impressed me the way this did (not since Gladiator in theaters).  Very well written, decent cinematography, well cast characters…  I am impressed.

Well anyway, until we meet again, take care.

Daniel

Not talkin' 'bout a year
No not three or four
I don't want that kind of forever
In my life anymore
Forever always seems
to be around when it begins
but forever never seems
to be around when it ends
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do From you

People spend so much time
Every single day
Runnin' 'round all over town
Givin' their forever away
But no not me
I won't let my forever roam
and now I hope I can find
my forever a home
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do
From you

Like a handless clock with numbers
An infinite of time
No not the forever found
Only in the mind
Forever always seems
to be around when things begin
but forever never seems
to be around when things end
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do
From you

Forever, Ben Haper 

Well, it’s been awhile… 

I sit having revelations about so many things and so many people…  This is usually not a good thing, today is no exception.  I’m tired of drama…  I have always been tired of drama, but for some reason, right now is different.  I’m tired of the blinders that go on when someone is in “love.”  Of course its not infatuation, cause that would seem weak, right???    Bullshit!  90% of the people I know have some sort of an infatuation going on.  I admit, I have been there before.

Infatuation brings sexual connotations with it.  Infatuation is simply short term mental masturbation.  Is it that hard to acknowledge that it is just a matter of convenience???  Instead of constantly looking at someone sexually, try being intrigued by them.  Be interested in them as a person, an androgynous being.

Drama and games, fuck’em both 

Next topic…

Can people really drift so far apart that they completely desert the capability to sustain acquaintance???  How depressing…

Currently Listening Planet Earth By (hed) pe see related

Fuck that...

Just gotta quit lookin....